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PostSubject: My Name   Tue Dec 10, 2013 8:24 pm

Well I think I've done it, folks. I think I've got my name.

Before I tell you what it is (Don't skip to the bottom  Evil or Very Mad ) let's give some insight on this story of mine.

My quest to discover who I really was came about, I'd say, 3 months ago. With the formation of a group I like to call "The Unity" (I made a symbol for it that you may have seen in my introduction article). This group was dedicated to learning about the scenario of Veilfall and what would happen afterwards. In this group I met a man named Will (also known as Will Guardian, and Will Ascher) who had told me that something seemed special about my soul. He threw a ton of ideas at me about what it could be that makes it "different" such as demigod, reincarnated apostle, etc. but nothing really resonated with me. He proceeded to ask me what I felt close to. I replied with "Angels".

Ever since I was young I've had a fascination with Angels. My uncle died before I was born and I used to have dreams about him as an Angel flying over my house and keeping us safe when I was around two or four. I was raised in a Christian household though we really belonged to no church (I loosely affiliated with baptists for a while) due to the fact that we have a lot of different beliefs that probably go against some of the teachings of modern Christianity. Forgive that brief digression.

If there's anything I know about Will, it's that he's a great liar. He tried to persuade me that I was still that multitude of things when I knew I wasn't. I kind of stopped thinking about who I was for a while due to the fact that The Unity was crumbling right before my eyes and I tried to stop it, but that's not important. A little bit after I revived what was left of The Unity I decided to go more "in depth" with finding out who I was. My name was at the forefront of this search. I Googled the names of Angels at least 10 times over trying to find one that resonated with me, dismissing particular groups because I thought it farfetched to even consider the fact that I may be a part of them (the Archangels).

A few days after Googling the names of the Angels I eventually delved into symbols of Angels. My thought process was "Maybe I'll see something I'm familiar with?". Sure enough, this symbol  - o -  Is in the seal of Micha'el. I was shocked when I found this out, I told my student in psionics (who is also a very good friend of mine, and my girlfriend's brother) about it. He was just as surprised as I was. He said something along the lines of "Wow, that's crazy. What do you think this means?" and I must've said "I MUST BE THE GOD-DAMNED ARCHANGEL MICHAEL!" as a joke.

When I sent it, it was a joke. But something felt odd about it. It felt right. (you may think you know where this is going but I've got like two more paragraphs to go  Wink )

After that event I started going more and more in depth about Michael. It must've been a few days later that I found this forum, and was immensely interested in everything written here. I made an account, but felt that FeirceDeity64 might've been a little strange for a forum like this, so I wanted it to be Troajn. I decided that FeirceDeity64 was alright in the long run though, so I went for it. Now I'm getting off-topic. Let's get back to what we were discussing before.

I had looked through some interesting articles. At first ones about Micha'el, later I looked at articles that just looked interesting. Through that I stumbled upon many more stories of Micha'el than articles bearing his name did. Most, if not all, having a strong sense of familiarity to me (Gabe's account of what Micha'el did to Dan was particularly emotional for me). This was on top of flashbacks I would get during readings of these, and memories I would receive after reading them. Things resonated.

I didn't want to announce my name until I was at least 95% sure of what it was, and I had evidence to back it. I waited and researched for at least a month, now I believe that I know what it is.

Micha'el.

I was a bit hesitant to put this out there because I was afraid of how others might react, but I think it's time. It couldn't stay a secret forever, right? I still am a bit nervous about putting this on here. I might reread this 20 times before hitting send.  Shocked 



To comfort me, here is something entirely random to diffuse an otherwise awkward situation. tongue 


Until next time,
Feirce
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PostSubject: Re: My Name   Wed Dec 11, 2013 12:39 am

I don't think my opinion really matters as much as Ish and the Shadow that are here, but I'll gladly give some *hugs* and thanks for sharing your experiences, some of your memories, and your name with us.
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PostSubject: Re: My Name   Wed Dec 11, 2013 1:26 am

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I don't think my opinion really matters as much as Ish and the Shadow that are here, but I'll gladly give some *hugs* and thanks for sharing your experiences, some of your memories, and your name with us.  

Your opinion matters as much as any to me. *hugs back* Thank you.  Very Happy Very Happy Very Happy 
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PostSubject: Re: My Name   Wed Dec 11, 2013 3:39 pm

Welcome, brother. Smile *big big hugs* This actually kindof explains some things.
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PostSubject: Re: My Name   Wed Dec 11, 2013 8:27 pm

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Welcome, brother. Smile*big big hugs* This actually kindof explains some things.

I know, right? *Hugs back* Thank you.  Razz 
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PostSubject: Re: My Name   Mon Dec 16, 2013 2:04 am

Well if you are Michael, we have had a good and bad past, but it's nice to see you again. You and Gabriel were the reason I was able to become a dominion Arch Seraph.
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PostSubject: Re: My Name   Mon Dec 16, 2013 2:53 am

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Well if you are Michael, we have had a good and bad past, but it's nice to see you again. You and Gabriel were the reason I was able to become a dominion Arch Seraph.

I look forward to reconnecting with you!  Very Happy 

If I'm not mistaken you were my student, no? Does the name "Zachary/Zachariah" ring any bells? I believe to have found another student of mine in person and he says that your name invokes a feeling of familiarity.

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PostSubject: Re: My Name   Mon Dec 16, 2013 2:55 am

FeirceDeity64 wrote:
Zadki'el wrote:
Well if you are Michael, we have had a good and bad past, but it's nice to see you again. You and Gabriel were the reason I was able to become a dominion Arch Seraph.

I look forward to reconnecting with you!  Very Happy 

If I'm not mistaken you were my student, no? Does the name "Zachary/Zachariah" ring any bells? I believe to have found another student of mine in person and he says that your name invokes a feeling of familiarity.


It feels familiar, a name that kind of brings a smile to my face, but I'm unsure exactly why.
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PostSubject: Re: My Name   Mon Dec 16, 2013 3:28 am

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FeirceDeity64 wrote:
Zadki'el wrote:
Well if you are Michael, we have had a good and bad past, but it's nice to see you again. You and Gabriel were the reason I was able to become a dominion Arch Seraph.

I look forward to reconnecting with you!  Very Happy 

If I'm not mistaken you were my student, no? Does the name "Zachary/Zachariah" ring any bells? I believe to have found another student of mine in person and he says that your name invokes a feeling of familiarity.


It feels familiar, a name that kind of brings a smile to my face, but I'm unsure exactly why.

That's good to hear! I'm sure that the two of you knew each other in the past! Perhaps you studied beside one another and became friends in the process?
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PostSubject: Re: My Name   Mon Dec 16, 2013 3:32 am

FeirceDeity64 wrote:
Zadki'el wrote:
FeirceDeity64 wrote:
Zadki'el wrote:
Well if you are Michael, we have had a good and bad past, but it's nice to see you again. You and Gabriel were the reason I was able to become a dominion Arch Seraph.

I look forward to reconnecting with you!  Very Happy 

If I'm not mistaken you were my student, no? Does the name "Zachary/Zachariah" ring any bells? I believe to have found another student of mine in person and he says that your name invokes a feeling of familiarity.


It feels familiar, a name that kind of brings a smile to my face, but I'm unsure exactly why.

That's good to hear! I'm sure that the two of you knew each other in the past! Perhaps you studied beside one another and became friends in the process?

That's also possible, when I was not with Samuel, I was training with you and the others.
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PostSubject: Re: My Name   Wed Dec 18, 2013 7:54 pm

My memories of Micha'el are all bad. I believe it makes me a lesser person than I could be, but I'm not in a place yet, maybe I never will be, where I can forgive. Micha'el took too much away from me, and was too happy about doing it, to make it easy, or even possible to forgive.

Neither can I trust him.

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PostSubject: Re: My Name   Wed Dec 18, 2013 9:38 pm

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My memories of Micha'el are all bad. I believe it makes me a lesser person than I could be, but I'm not in a place yet, maybe I never will be, where I can forgive. Micha'el took too much away from me, and was too happy about doing it, to make it easy, or even possible to forgive.

Neither can I trust him.


I understand. I don't request forgiveness if you are not willing, or ready to give it, but I hope that we may still be civil towards one another. Your stance is understandable, and I don't think any lesser of you for it. You can hate me for the person I was, but please don't hate me for the person that I am now.

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PostSubject: Re: My Name   Thu Dec 19, 2013 11:40 am

That's not what I meant at all, honey. Fierce is a sweetheart and I don't hate him the tiniest bit. And of course I'll be civil. This forum is a safe place for us all. I would hate it if you felt uncomfortable here, especially because of me. Just expect a (civil) challenge when you post as Micha'el Smile

If I make you feel uncomfortable in any way, challenge me. Don't be afraid to bitch slap me (metaphorically of course) if I cross a line. I have plenty of opinions, some which should be kept to myself, and I tend to rant
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PostSubject: Re: My Name   Thu Dec 19, 2013 12:09 pm

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That's not what I meant at all, honey. Fierce is a sweetheart and I don't hate him the tiniest bit. And of course I'll be civil. This forum is a safe place for us all. I would hate it if you felt uncomfortable here, especially because of me. Just expect a (civil) challenge when you post as Micha'el Smile

If I make you feel uncomfortable in any way, challenge me. Don't be afraid to bitch slap me (metaphorically of course) if I cross a line. I have plenty of opinions, some which should be kept to myself, and I tend to rant

Phew, that's a relief. I was worried for a few days! I'm glad that things will still be good between us!

I'm going to make another gif for this situation since I have way too much free time.  Razz 
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PostSubject: Re: My Name   Fri Dec 20, 2013 2:14 am

FeirceDeity64 wrote:
Ishtahar wrote:
That's not what I meant at all, honey. Fierce is a sweetheart and I don't hate him the tiniest bit. And of course I'll be civil. This forum is a safe place for us all. I would hate it if you felt uncomfortable here, especially because of me. Just expect a (civil) challenge when you post as Micha'el Smile

If I make you feel uncomfortable in any way, challenge me. Don't be afraid to bitch slap me (metaphorically of course) if I cross a line. I have plenty of opinions, some which should be kept to myself, and I tend to rant

Phew, that's a relief. I was worried for a few days! I'm glad that things will still be good between us!

I'm going to make another gif for this situation since I have way too much free time.  Razz 

I've done it!



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PostSubject: Re: My Name   Fri Dec 20, 2013 6:08 pm

Love it
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PostSubject: Re: My Name   Fri Dec 20, 2013 6:28 pm

Ishtahar wrote:
Love it

Thanks, Ish! Very Happy
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