Conclusion so far...

Well I have pieced together the little bits of memories i started to have, and the feelings I felt at those times. I have come to a conclusion;

I was always there. I knew that I wasn't wanted or liked most likely because of who i was. I remember one day, i just give up and cut into my veins with a blade. A name 'Jeremiel' was being shouted as I did the act, but i didn't know who it was. I wanted somebody to at least notice my existance, but i shut myself away. I did that act, and it was likely i did other acts of violence (First memory, injured another angel). I felt like everyone had betrayed me, when in reality, I was just closing myself off.

Looking back, I have now come to the conclusion that I am a Nephilim, which explains why I can still feel wings sometimes and have done since the age of ten-eleven. The person who looked exactly like me only with blonde hair could have been my mother, and I think I have a good idea who my father is. In my mind, I always see a male angel with long, dark hair. He would be wearing white robes; when he comes to my minds eye I can just feel a father and daughter link. His name, however, I'll have to look into that. But, at least I'm getting somewhere.

Also, its possible that my name could have either been 'Amethyst' or 'Jeremiel'. Very possible that I was named after an angel, its either that or Jeremiel was my fathers name and Amethyst my mothers. Lots of leads though.

This is very good! You're well on your way to figuring out who you are! I hope you get more information about yourself!   

FeirceDeity64 wrote:

This is very good! You're well on your way to figuring out who you are! I hope you get more information about yourself!   

Thanks! I do too ill post anything else that i find out

I believe the suffix 'el denotes a warrior of some sort, maybe in the army. 'on seems to denote a politician, or on the Council, or some kind of advisor or diplomat

Ishtahar wrote:

I believe the suffix 'el denotes a warrior of some sort, maybe in the army. 'on seems to denote a politician, or on the Council, or some kind of advisor or diplomat

What do you mean? (:

Becca wrote:

Also, its possible that my name could have either been 'Amethyst' or 'Jeremiel'. Very possible that I was named after an angel, its either that or Jeremiel was my fathers name and Amethyst my mothers. Lots of leads though.

It says he's the angel of mercy, like myself..maybe he and I crossed paths

Zadki'el wrote:

Becca wrote:

Also, its possible that my name could have either been 'Amethyst' or 'Jeremiel'. Very possible that I was named after an angel, its either that or Jeremiel was my fathers name and Amethyst my mothers. Lots of leads though.

It says he's the angel of mercy, like myself..maybe he and I crossed paths

Add on:

Archangel Jeremiel ~

Jeremiel's name means 'Mercy of God' In addition to being an archangel of prophetic vision's, Jeremiel helps newly-crossed over souls to review their lives. He helps those still living to take an inventory of their life, to be able to make positive adjustments. Visions, life review and psychic dreams.

Becca wrote:

Ishtahar wrote:

I believe the suffix 'el denotes a warrior of some sort, maybe in the army. 'on seems to denote a politician, or on the Council, or some kind of advisor or diplomat

What do you mean? (:

Well, angels like Azaz'el, Micha'el, Ari'el, Tazi'el were warriors

Angels like Sandalph'on and Metatr'on were councilors/advisors

Semjaza wasn't really Shem's name. It was kind of a nickname because he hung around with As so much, following him around. It wasn't his real name.

Ishtahar wrote:

Becca wrote:

Ishtahar wrote:

I believe the suffix 'el denotes a warrior of some sort, maybe in the army. 'on seems to denote a politician, or on the Council, or some kind of advisor or diplomat

What do you mean? (:

Well, angels like Azaz'el, Micha'el, Ari'el, Tazi'el were warriors

Angels like Sandalph'on and Metatr'on were councilors/advisors

Semjaza wasn't really Shem's name. It was kind of a nickname because he hung around with As so much, following him around. It wasn't his real name.

I was a warrior, but also a judge/councilor I believe...WOW his name wasn't Semjaza...I'm curious what exactly was it? I never met him, but I didnt meet alot of you either out of different jobs keeping us apart of the fact I was somewhat of a shy angel when I wasnt around those I knew.

Awww Zadki'el shy ! Now that is adorable

I have a whole slew of research from a couple of years ago on this general area (it is very relevant to my interests). Here is some of the stuff I pulled from the "Dictionary of Deities and Demons in the Bible":

Jeremiel is one of the names some scholars link to a cluster of names they think might be variants of the same angel: Remiel, Ramiel, Eremiel, and Jeremiel.

The name Jeremiel is from 4 Ezra, where his duty is to watch over the souls in Hades.

I am not sure how much technical scholarly information would be of interest to you, but if you want some books or sources, I can dig some up for you. I often see Jeremiel linked to the stone and color Amethyst in more New Age sources, and personally I often get pegged with that color as well. But that might be relevant to your interests, too.

you should try reading and memorizing the encyclopedia of angels thats a good read, but i think its good that progress is being made in the remembrance of memories, i havent learned much about my memories but i have made some progress.

Memorizing an encyclopedia of angels seems like a loooooot of work. I tend to just reference the various encyclopedias as I need to. That is one of the good things about owning a book, or having access to Google.