I'm making this post to tell you all a little bit about my soul's father and some of the things he's told me. I know some of this might not make sense or it could possibly contradict itself in places, I'm not sure yet, I've gathered most of my information through dreams and meditation. So I don't expect everything to be 100% accurate.
Basically his looks are very simple. He has blond hair that comes down to just above his ears and it's a really dark blond, almost brown. His eyes are black (which I found unusual because I've never seen anyone with black/grey eyes before) and you can't tell where the iris stops and the pupil begins. It's not creepy or anything, just weird. He's tall. Well, in comparison to me he's tall. He's about 6' 2” which is huge to me as I'm only 5' 2” and a smidgen! He doesn't have any wings either. He did once but they were torn off as punishment. Where they should have been is jagged lumps of what looks like scar tissue and some sort of wing bone thing. I'm not too sure though. I feel really sorry for him because he lost his wings; seeing an angel without wings to me is like seeing an eagle with no wings. The colour of his skin is hard to describe, too. He's not pale but he's not super tanned either. He's almost caught in the middle of white with a deeper cream glow.
His personality is even harder to describe. Sometimes he seems really understanding, gentle and a lovely person to be around and sometimes he seems like he has no time for anyone or anything and almost dangerous. All in all he’s fairly different to me. As a whole person he’s strong, unbelievably brave and protective.
One of the first things he told me was about how he came to be my father in that life. He told me that he was a guardian and that he was sent to watch over a woman who would later be my mum. He was sent down with his weapon (which was a bow and arrow) and 3 rules that he was told to keep or else, and they were that he couldn’t show himself to her, he couldn’t speak to her and that once his 3 arrows were used up he had to return home immediately, even if she was still in danger. So he came and he did his job and ended up being with her for about 2 months. Around the 2 month mark he used the last of his arrows but he didn’t want to leave her. He told me that he wasn’t in love with her or anything but he thought that she was the “most beautiful creature” he’d ever seen, and from what I remember, she was very beautiful. On his last night before he returned home he decided that he would show himself to her AND speak to her, breaking pretty much all of the rules he was given. Shortly after convincing her that he in fact was an angel and that he wasn’t there to hurt her… “it” happened and then he jogged off home without a second thought. When he went home he was punished for breaking the rules: he had his title stripped and was starved for a week but during that time he found that he couldn’t get my mum out of his head so easily, she wasn’t going to be easy to forget.
Once things were calmer between him and the other angels he went down to physically visit her again, and he did that another twice over a period of 2 or 3 weeks. On the third time he went down she told him that her father had arranged a marriage between her and who I thought was my biological father in that life. Hanaelan was a bit disappointed but he couldn’t do anything, he already said he didn’t love her or anything. Then the shocker came. My mother told him that she thought that she was going to have a baby and he was the only person who could be the father. He didn’t visit her again after that and none of the angels seemed to realize that he’d wandered off or that he’d gotten a “lowly” human pregnant. My mum went on to get married and have me and everyone thought that I was her husband's kid which fitted her story perfectly.
But some nebby, wee, stuck-up angel fart must have found out somehow and clyped on my dad, because a few weeks after I was born he was exiled. They tore off his wings so that he couldn’t pay anyone anymore “visits” and so he could never go back to his home. I can’t even imagine how sore it would be to actually have a part of your body pulled off. What happened with him after that is still a mystery.