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PostSubject: A love - more memory..   Tue Apr 05, 2011 12:06 pm

This Shadow who's been contacting me recently, in spirit... Azrael (?) I think I remember that we were in love, a very, very, very long time ago... around the time, perhaps, that I was being watched over by the Shadow (just wrote about that in another post called "memories"). Perhaps we were not "supposed" to be in love though. *is confused.*

I just remember his face, and the moon was full above us, and we were alone standing in a small clearing in the woods. he put his hand on my cheek and told me that he had feelings for me and asked me if I would "become one" with him (sleep together). My face flushed hot and he moved closer and told me how beautiful that he found me and then he kissed me... and... *clears throat*...

I don't think that it was "right" though... I know that I fell in love with him but it was "unnatural" to do so, almost like a .... a pig and a chicken, lol...

I remember the others finding out, much later, and raised voices and heated tempers... no one came to blows, but no one thought that it was "right", I don't think, but the two of us.... well, even I didn't really think it was "right" but I was very..... not strictly speaking innocent, but I looked up to the Shadow who were watching over me, and thought that they all knew more about the world than I did... and I felt always very ignorant about what was happening. I knew that I loved him, and that felt "right" that emotion... but that it was "unnatural" at the same time. I don't remember him becoming angry in response to his brothers, only steadfast and determined that his mind would not change in this matter and that he loved me too immensely to stop what he was doing. So, we were together.

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PostSubject: Re: A love - more memory..   Wed Apr 06, 2011 10:20 pm

A pig and a chicken................ that made me laugh so much! But it is a perfect way to describe how some viewed it.

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PostSubject: Re: A love - more memory..   Thu Apr 07, 2011 1:37 am

::grins::

::nodnods::

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PostSubject: Re: A love - more memory..   Fri Apr 08, 2011 4:19 am

More comes to me everyday, unexpected, while I read... Azrael watching me by the fire, before he'd said anything

Placing a flower behind my ear, after he'd made his feelings known.

I just wish that I could know him again...
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PostSubject: Re: A love - more memory..   Fri Apr 08, 2011 5:57 am

I think that hoping will make it happen.
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PostSubject: Re: A love - more memory..   Sun Apr 10, 2011 10:35 pm

I know how it feels to remember such a love that has been lost............ keep hoping, Ash, never give up xx


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PostSubject: Re: A love - more memory..   Mon Apr 11, 2011 2:13 pm

A Very wise person once told me...

"Maybe Creation wants us to meet a few wrong people before meeting the right one so that when we finally meet the right person, we will know how to truly be grateful for that gift."

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PostSubject: Re: A love - more memory..   Wed Apr 13, 2011 10:21 pm

Thanks for sharing that Ouza, I do like that!

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PostSubject: Re: A love - more memory..   Wed May 04, 2011 12:47 pm

How many times? How long do we wait?
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PostSubject: Re: A love - more memory..   Wed May 04, 2011 1:17 pm

It changes now love !!!

Ouza I love you I love you I love you
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PostSubject: Re: A love - more memory..   Tue Aug 07, 2012 1:44 am

Beautiful memory...! I love you Sad
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PostSubject: Re: A love - more memory..   Sun Sep 16, 2012 3:52 am

I remember that Ash.....I remember that he loved you very much and died defending you...he knows where you are and "sees" you..even if you don't see him...Love is stronger than we think....and will always prevail...

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PostSubject: Re: A love - more memory..   Sun Sep 16, 2012 11:40 am

I am so stunned and so very happy to hear this from someone finally. I often wonder if I'm just imagining that he knows me already even if I have no idea who or where he is. I sometimes have fleeting images of him suffering something for me though I don't remember where or when this was. There is too much that I don't remember still and so much that pulls at me. Thank you for sharing this.
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