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PostSubject: A Rabid Dog   Fri May 11, 2012 12:05 am

Kur told me about this place, and suggested my husband and I join. He'll be joining shortly (Alhazred for those who will be looking for him and know anything about him, I'm sure you do. He was also the Scorpion-Man, and there's aspects of Pazuzu in him too.), he's just been extremely busy with things. But that's besides the point. This would be my introduction.

So.. where do I even begin?

Memories started at a very young age. But not so much memories, just feelings, knowing well aware I was a dog, demanding it to my parents, friends, and peers, knowing that it was beyond make-believe. And the dreams I have had since as long as I can ever remember about running on all fours. Through sand an through snow. I know I've been incarnated over and over again, and the story's usually the same. I was the Rabid Dog of old, one of the soul hunting hounds of the Wild Hunt, a half mad ghostly thing. Whether or not I have any ties to the dog like creatures my husband used to know about in the wastelands he wandered - remains to be seen but it would make an awful lot of sense.

Like Kur I know what my duty here is, waiting and biding my time until the war happens, practicing as much magick is possible and burring my nose in book after book, my husband (We'll call him A.) A. being my grounding stone as far as I go. He's seen a lot, 'remembers it all', and is probably the best helper one could ask for when looking for someone to keep them sane when he's beyond crazy. He's long along lost his mind, he worries deeply for me, and how well I'll handle all of this. Because while he busts out in this cackling fit when I crack another riddle, late at night - well early in the morning when we sleep. There's a sadness on his face. He never wanted this for me, to follow down this path, but he knew it was going to happen, sooner or later.

There's this crazy heavy driving lust like feeling, to drive every single non-caring human off the face of the planet. I see it day after day and it's.. there aren't any words for it. To see the endless suffering of the masses at the hands of one single race. I know not all humans are bad. A. himself was once human, but it was taken from him and even then there were rumors in that life that his father was a jinn, but since that human for was taken...sometimes I think in exchange for everything that he knows now. Like he's some kind of messenger to teach me and help this little group that me and my friends are now.. and to help us find one another.. Even if he didn't even know it at first, or maybe he did.. He's secretive as hell. Not in a bad way, just in... "its beyond your comprehension" sort of way.

The deal is, on my end, it's so hard to translate into human words what it all is to me, because the dog inside me, what I really am, who I really was.. was a servant to Kur in a way, one of the many monster children of Tiamat, and a passing hellish hound the Empty Space that once may have crossed paths with the Mad Poet, my husband in this life. I just know what I'm supposed to do when it happens.. and waiting, ever diligently waiting as the winds of time blow by. I feel like.. it's taking forever, though, because I'm blessed with not being born into some kind of slave trade.. I'm not a real dog hooked up to a machine. I want to do something now - but my options are limited, go out and save a select few and possibly die and ruin whatever plans my gods and my husband gods set out for me. I mean, if I was one of those poor souls locked inside the hellholes they there are trapped in - animal labs and factory farms, I'd want to be saved too. Its just so much.. often.. all at once. And interacting with the human world is just futile. After really confiding in A. it all makes perfect sense why I have so many problems acting like a normal person - doing the normal things. He blends in better than I do. I am what I am, there's no escaping that, and there's nothing I can do but lick at my chops and sit on my haunches, waiting for the single.. and when this body changes. A. often wonders if it's my True Will that will allow me to transform, but he isn't sure. All in all, I am who I am, and I hope I can manage to find some friends or maybe even allies on this forum.

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PostSubject: Re: A Rabid Dog   Fri May 11, 2012 12:29 am

Hey there Dog, glad to see you're introducing yourself. <3
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PostSubject: Re: A Rabid Dog   Fri May 11, 2012 6:08 am

Aloha RabidDog, and welcome to the forum.

This is a place of exploring, remembering, reconnecting and forging new bonds. I hope that during your stay you are able to find what you seek.

When you mention "the Wild Hunt" is that a reference to the Wild Hunt of the Unseelie? I admit that many of those terms I wonder the meaning of... but I may recognize that one Smile

If you have questions or problems let a member of staff know, or one of our admin.

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PostSubject: Re: A Rabid Dog   Fri May 11, 2012 7:51 am

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There's this crazy heavy driving lust like feeling, to drive every single non-caring human off the face of the planet. I see it day after day and it's.. there aren't any words for it. To see the endless suffering of the masses at the hands of one single race. I know not all humans are bad.

On thinking more about this, about this post, and about the plan you all have... well... In part I empathize... I imagine that these feelings within you are stirred up by the past experiences of your other lives. But in part I also feel fury...

It is easy to turn away from someone, to turn your back on them. This is, in essence, what you are saying. It is far harder to reach out to others, to draw them in to your love.

And I wonder is there any love that you have? Is there some wonderful place that you are trying to get to, or are you driven only by hatred and madness??

I empathize because of that part of my own self... I have mentioned that as we, the divine feminine, lost ourselves, we were killed, dismembered, driven off. I was split into three pieces. One merely died... and was resurrected with the help of others in this very life that I am living. One was locked away. One turned to madness and rage. It is she who screams at Yahweh, Iscarion, Set, and Ahriman. She, too wants too destroy. But she wants to destroy everything. All of creation. That is the future that I have feared. What would become if her wishes were made manifest.
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PostSubject: Re: A Rabid Dog   Fri May 11, 2012 8:51 am

Welcome to the forum. I'm very pleased to meet you and look forward to getting to know you and your husband
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PostSubject: Re: A Rabid Dog   Fri May 11, 2012 10:33 am

Welcome to the forum.
My name is Capsha but feel free to call me Cap, Cappy, Caps, Haniel or anything you want to, really!
I'm an archangel of joy.
I hope you enjoy your stay here Smile
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PostSubject: Re: A Rabid Dog   Fri May 11, 2012 10:47 am

@Kur - ;3 Thanks

@Ashtart - Thank you for the welcome..
And to be honest, the Dog isn't driven by rage.. rage out of the anguish for other creatures perhaps, but not really my mistreatment that mankind has given me. I have been able to soften the left over hatred I have had for people and how they have mistreated me, in a way it's sort of just.. whatever.. people are people.. but the dog can't stand seeing it happen to the innocent of this world.
Driven by Madness...? Yes and no. Than again that's A's territory. Perhaps him and I are both driven by madness. But neither of us are crazy enough to destroy everything. I thank you for sharing your story(ies).
Love is there, I mean, my love for the planet and her children goes back, and my love for A is just.. I can't really put it into words. 13 years - and we've have had past lives together. And I love Kur. It's the love I have for them that has kept me from crippling into my own madness. But I think in a way, I needed to be reminded not to be driven my hate. Because I was when I was a teenager. It often irritated A. because he noticed I was losing my focus; why we are what we are, and what we have to do.

@Ishtahar - Thank you! Yeah, looking forward to getting to know everybody here too. Heh, A's kind of well... unique..
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PostSubject: Re: A Rabid Dog   Fri May 11, 2012 11:35 am

@Ashtart - Also, the Wild Hunt I'm speaking about is Gwynn ap Nudd's from Welsh/Celtic myth.

@Capsha - Thank you Very Happy
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PostSubject: Re: A Rabid Dog   Fri May 11, 2012 4:11 pm

Hello and welcome to the forum.

I am sagehawk. I am a Goddess, a piece of the divine feminine of the ALL. I am very similar to Artemis or Diana in myth. I embody the feminine aspects of the warrior, and hunter. I am a divine co-creator and guide for those experiencing death in all aspects. I keep creation from becoming stagnant.

I chose to come here to let people know that death is not scary, evil, or something to run from.

Why be so afraid of death, when you've done it thousands of times before?

This being said, considering who I am, I will have to disagree with your view of things on the planet dying being a bad thing. I know your view comes from a place of love and concern for the life on this planet. However, you should not be so sad... those who have died here have simply moved to another place of being. Everything happens for a reason.

To act with rage towards death is a waste of time and energy you could be placing somewhere else.
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PostSubject: Re: A Rabid Dog   Fri May 11, 2012 7:06 pm

Given that I live very close to Neath (Nedd) I have a real soft spot for the hounds of Annwn. I know them well, too.

Sagehawk? Do you have a connection with the Cailleach, as it seems you have similar functions.
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PostSubject: Re: A Rabid Dog   Fri May 11, 2012 8:27 pm

A Dearest Welcome,

Our family here is a circle of Pride and Strength. Founded on faith joined in love through the creation of all here together and forever!

And as to who I am... creation only knows but depending on who you might talk to I am young yet old in this lifetime. I hope that you find a base here where you are totally comfortable about sharing and caring for we are all truly one and the same!

Our Prescription for Happiness begins with chocolate and ultimately ends in chocolate lol!

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PostSubject: Re: A Rabid Dog   Fri May 11, 2012 9:27 pm

@sagehawk - You words fall upon tired ears. Sad to say, and I can no longer muster the strength to counter argue with your statement. Kind of like a yawning dog with a gaping mawl. If everything happens for a reason, and death is just fine. Perhaps its fine if my husband decides to start harvesting human beings for food? Keeping large numbers of men, women, and children locked in our cellar in small cages. Never coming out to see the sun.
Seriously don't preach to the person who's a related to the Cwn Annwn and bonded to the author of the Necronomicon about Death. It gets old fast. Settling yourself miss and realize this dog cares littler for your ... as A. ever so coined it this morning "sailor moon speech".

Ouza - I'm nearing 30 but feel ageless, and then very young. So age really doesn't matter Razz. But over all looking forward to this place.

Ishtahar - One of the few times I heard that. Thank you. Yeah.. I used to call various New Age shops asking for pendents of the Cwn Annwn ten years ago - only to get hung up on. Because we're totally evil, totally. Ten years later they are a hair better, and even have Loki idols hahahaha.
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PostSubject: Re: A Rabid Dog   Fri May 11, 2012 9:29 pm

Ashtart, we truly love creation, and we are driven to defend it. We are as opposed as you are to any who seek to destroy everything. That is exactly what motivates us. We are not in an easy position. Its not a matter of let live or let die. It's kill billions or let trillions more die. If anything, we are sparing more lives then those who choose to do nothing.

Ishtahar, what are your experiences with the hounds?

Sagehawk, by your words it would seem you give us your blessing then. If death is just a trifle, then you must have no issue with us ending the human species. Perhaps we could start with the humans you love since you have so much to teach us about accepting death. Certainly they would volunteer!
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PostSubject: Re: A Rabid Dog   Fri May 11, 2012 11:46 pm

I'm not sure what about Sagehawk's comment classifies her as a "miss." That seems like a dismissive label to me and I would appreciate not seeing abrasions along lines of gender or age here. It's an emotive topic, and a couple of us are hot under the collar, but personal comments are not tolerated.

edit: this goes, of course, for everyone.



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PostSubject: Re: A Rabid Dog   Fri May 11, 2012 11:57 pm

... Anyway... I do also think that the attitude of the Goddess would be more one of "I'm tired of this fighting," not so much, "I'm tired of death." Death is a part of life.

Right now, humans are stupid creatures that are scared of nature and animals and seek to imprison them, destroy them and corrupt them out of pure shitless fear.

The nature spirits that I talk to want to break the wall that separates the worlds, and bring humans back into the fold. Perhaps making them insane for the process, but whole again. I can easily imagine the Goddess giving up on everyone if nature decided to act on fear and hatred too and try to destroy the humans.
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PostSubject: Re: A Rabid Dog   Sat May 12, 2012 12:21 am

@Ashtart - Got it, sorry, its a bad habit I picked up. (A. is far worse than me, he deliberately calls people "sweetheart" "doll" "toots" just to get under peoples skin.) I meant nothing by age by it. Razz. Its just the over heard lecture I get again and again. I'm not fighting out of fear or hate. And I worry a lot of people miss the point myself and my fellow warriors for the planet are trying to make.

You know to be honest, if humans had to give up everything, rejoin the fold, they would go insane.. I mean, makes me wonder how many of them would take each other out if they ever went back to the old ways of gathering..
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PostSubject: Re: A Rabid Dog   Sat May 12, 2012 12:38 am

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Sagehawk, by your words it would seem you give us your blessing then. If death is just a trifle, then you must have no issue with us ending the human species. Perhaps we could start with the humans you love since you have so much to teach us about accepting death. Certainly they would volunteer!
I would but there is one problem. All souls are sovereign in their own right. Murder is interfering with free will.
Secondly, why would I support death, to save things that will already die? Its a bit redundant really for you to do this. I dont mean to be rude, but its rather silly.(not to mention, stops the soul in question prematurely from learning, and running its natural soul course)

Death is no big deal, but killing is a big deal. Not only because of what I just mentioned but because it also creates bad karma, for lack of a better term, for the individuals involved. I clear karma, and I support those who do the same thing, not those that would create more. Many fail to see this distinction. dealing with death is different than dealing with taking a life.
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PostSubject: Re: A Rabid Dog   Sat May 12, 2012 12:40 am

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... Anyway... I do also think that the attitude of the Goddess would be more one of "I'm tired of this fighting," not so much, "I'm tired of death." Death is a part of life.

Right now, humans are stupid creatures that are scared of nature and animals and seek to imprison them, destroy them and corrupt them out of pure shitless fear.

The nature spirits that I talk to want to break the wall that separates the worlds, and bring humans back into the fold. Perhaps making them insane for the process, but whole again. I can easily imagine the Goddess giving up on everyone if nature decided to act on fear and hatred too and try to destroy the humans.
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PostSubject: Re: A Rabid Dog   Sat May 12, 2012 1:17 am

What do you think the humans are doing? These deaths aren't occuring in a vacuum o_O

And yeah, everything dies eventually, but we're talking about mass extinction here, and unnecessary . How can you brush that off as nothing?

And free will, that is exactly what we are trying to preserve for every other species on earth that people subjugate.

You can't even keep your own story straight.
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PostSubject: Re: A Rabid Dog   Sat May 12, 2012 1:34 am

I don't know about the rest of you but today was so sooooooo strange. I am being overwhelmed by nature-not in a negative way but it is so intense that it just knocks my socks off.

I swear that the trees and nature herself are reaching out to me in spirit trying to bring me home! I have to be careful because some of the elementals have been known for trickery and are often so inviting and not willing to let loose of you so easily from their hold.

If there is a large amount of energy and knowledge availed to them they will use glamour to hold you in! Some souls have been captured that way into thinking that they are in fact elsewhere but in effect only encased in the energy system of the host!

Just some advice don't be glamored by everything for all is not always as it seems!

Not all fall under this category by any means but you should always have discernment based on experience by your side.

Always awareness going in and also ultimately coming from within! lol Smile

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PostSubject: Re: A Rabid Dog   Sat May 12, 2012 3:50 am

Welcome, RD, to this forum we all share here! it's very much an open place, and as i'm sure many people have said already, in general we take a sort of "peaceful resolution" approach to conflict.

that said, welcome to the forum, I'm Razi'el, (former) chief archivist of the Shadow, and it's good to meet more of the fae/nature spirits of the world. i look forward to meeting your husband as well, and i hope to see and hear more of you!
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PostSubject: Re: A Rabid Dog   Sat May 12, 2012 10:10 am

Hello, RD. I am Melari, a Keeper of the Multiversal Balance, specifically, I am Earth's Deathkeeper. My job is to assist in maintaining the Balance through Death in all of its many forms. In a sense, you could say I am the embodiment of a piece of Death itself... But yes. As Sage said earlier, Death is a necessary part of maintaining the Balance, and it is nothing evil and it is nothing to fear, especially when it happens as it should. Humans have merely come to stigmatize it. Honestly, I find it sad that so many humans, both religious and those of the scientific minds, await a day where they will have eternal life on this plane. It is a day that will never arrive.

In any case, I too am a beast (Keepers who are beasts and normally assume a mostly humanoid form as known as Feral Keepers). My most commonly used form is humanoid in nature with some animalistic physical traits (those of an Edenic ligeress), though I do have a fully bestial form.

I hear your plight. I know the suffering that beasts go through in this day and age. Medical testing, being put into cages only to be slaughtered in a mass genocide for their meat or fur, its sickening and saddening. Sometimes, I'll even think about my pet chihuahua and how it feels wrong to keep her even though I love her and she seems to have grown attached to me.

But I honestly don't WANT to destroy the human race... If I absolutely must, then without hesitation, I will. But if there is another way, I'd much prefer that option. Like you said, though so many are corrupt, there ARE still a few good ones left...

I will always be against Yahweh, however. When the time comes to rise against him once more, you can count on me to be fighting on the front lines.

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PostSubject: Re: A Rabid Dog   Sat May 12, 2012 10:26 pm

Greetings and welcome to the forum,

by now I'm sure you will have had a good look around and get a sense of what this forum is all about and the way we post, behave and respect here.

At this point I must point out to all the introduction sentence that appears under the main title of the forum:

Greetings and welcome to our forum, a place for all Shadow, Fallen, Grigori, Otherkin and Humans. A place to share memories, hopes, dreams and reconnect.


I'm sure everyone sees this every time they log on but perhaps it is seen too often and easily forgotten. So a gentle reminder is perhaps needed. Not only as Admin, but also as Owner and a once high ranking Shadow and then co-leader of the Fallen Grigori - on this forum we hold all races as welcome and equal. That include Humanity.

There have been a number of recent posts made in threads that have been very negative towards Humanity. And I have agreed that Humanity has wrought a great deal of destruction upon this planet and other species that share this world with us. But it is important to remember that many of the Races that are welcome here have done terrible things, to other Races, to themselves. This forum isn't a place to vent anger or hatred, it is a place to bring about unity and healing.

The Fallen have a deep understanding of and respect for Humanity and the role they now play in unifying the many Races that have now become incarnate and awake. The Fallen will stand by Humanity and protect it, guide it, teach it, help it to grow and learn and become the Race it should have become.

I am aware that some members will disagree with my statement, and that is their right. However, this forum is a place of healing and unity, not division and resentment. I would ask all members to remember this and respect the origins and reasons behind this Forum.

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PostSubject: Re: A Rabid Dog   Mon May 14, 2012 2:20 pm

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What do you think the humans are doing? These deaths aren't occuring in a vacuum o_O

And yeah, everything dies eventually, but we're talking about mass extinction here, and unnecessary . How can you brush that off as nothing?

And free will, that is exactly what we are trying to preserve for every other species on earth that people subjugate.

You can't even keep your own story straight.
my point is this....

Some guy in Chicago kills someone, so every resident of Chicago must get the death penalty. This mentality is absurd. And why i dont fallow Yaweh at all.

You are taking the same road, by taking the 'kill all humans' stance. In your own words "...but we're talking about mass extinction here, and unnecessary . How can you brush that off as nothing?" Genocide is never the answer, I may support eugenics of some sort... but that is what nature already does.

There is also innocence by intent. Most of humanity dont know the damage the do, they are oblivious. In fact some think they are helping. It would be like a little kid putting anthrax in your tea thinking it was sugar, and killing you. All because he was trying to be helpful. You may think it is impossible to not know the damage... but you'd be wrong. Most are to busy with their daily grind to notice. Or are in a 3rd world country caring more about surviving their day.

Not to mention, why not care about your own species more than the rest? This seems quite natural to me. I doubt wolves give a damn about the suffering of crows, or camels...well actually even less than giving a damn, they are simply indifferent. Again, busy at thier daily survival and daily grind.

Either way, I can see by our very natures that we will not agree. Thats perfectly fine... I just ask that you see my point and that you consider it. Killing should not be a decision carelessly chosen.
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PostSubject: Re: A Rabid Dog   Mon May 14, 2012 2:25 pm

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You know to be honest, if humans had to give up everything, rejoin the fold, they would go insane.. I mean, makes me wonder how many of them would take each other out if they ever went back to the old ways of gathering..
Well thats the problem with humans today, they are too worried about 'loosing their mind'. Logic is all that is cared for, and why we are no longer in unity... logic has its purpose, but there is a difference between facts and truth... they need to be reminded of this.
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