If i start to remember

Greetings to all who read this post.

My english is not that good, so, please be kind if i write something wrong.
This is my first post, and actually i do not know what i should write, or even if i really belong to this Family...

My last fragment of the ''old'' memory startet when i was (at this time) 10. I visited, as always a good firned of mine. The streets i walk are modern, too modern as they could be the streets in front of my house.. I knew my father was something ''special(like a firnpresident or something)''

on my memories... My name is Torio Pireia. After i knew this little thing, my brain felt like a... like a airport for Big crazy ideas. I started to see weired weapons, kind of 15 inch long rockets wich cause explosions like 5 10 ton atom bombs.... and all...

2nd remembering. (right?)

I run, i run faster than my body is able to... Some ''Guardians'' uhm.. Doorkeepers, see me.. i said something like: "GET AWAY I HAVE SOMETHING IMPORTANT TO TELL!!!". They got aside and open the door. 10 peaople (7 stained black peaople), my friend (this one the post before) i said: "You are the false..." then the memory skipped....."when did you get the clue of this?", asked me one.. end.

It felt like i runned into a Meeting like the G8...

Some memorys like i am a computer, or camera. A planet wich is destructed, or something incomplete things...


Oh man. I do not know really what i write here... Maybe i am absolutley insane.

As i not if i... how shame

Welcome Torio, and thanks for sharing. That's what this place is for, and all about.

I ask myself if I'm insane too, a lot. As far as I can see half the time, there's no way to really tell... except for how you treat yourself and others. If you handle your responsibilities, take care of yourself and treat people with kindness and respect, then at the very least you're functionally insane, and still a good person.

It sounds to me like you're remembering the future, which isn't unheard of. I've read theories that all time and space exists in an eternal Now, which would make that possible. I can't relate to any of what you said directly, except for being intrigued by the "stained black people." I had a dream very recently in which I looked in the mirror and realized my skin was coated with something black, kind of like soot. Seeing myself that way was utterly terrifying, and I panicked. Fortunately, someone very precious to me was there, and able to wipe that coating from my skin. When I read what you said, it reminded me of that, especially with "You are the false..." if that was what you were calling them.

Where are you from, if you don't mind me asking? Are there translation programs available, to make the Forum easier for you to read and write on? Again, welcome, and feel free to tell us a little about yourself in the "Introduction" section.

I am from germany, i do not use any translation programms, i just read the text and a... Voice.. deep in my head translate this for me... its kind like i have some programms inside my soul, taken from anywere else i lived...

I am worse at english spelling, gramma and all that things.. but... it won't stop me from sharing the results of Nightmares,dreams and beautiful memorys i had.

An another memory was I opened the 5 ton heavy steeldoor. I am on the way into my loboratory. Suddenly someone is calling my name: "Torio?", a joung scientist is looking to me. i can't see her face, its stained black, its like a ghost covers her/his tdenty. Stupid me, i let my hand in the door and it closed. A the noise if some sticks are get break wa sthe last thing we heard, before i realized that my hand is gone. Blood and flesh falls down the floor and a hard scream of myself. The joung scientist stared at me, i am kneeing. memory broke up... i watched my left hand and cried... i rememberd the pain... I am looking at my new hand... it feels like its real, but to panic the students i have i lose it on purpose. so they are shocked and i can say: "Oooops, you stupid hand, why you won't stick into my arm?"

Welcome to the forum darling. Don't feel that you have to share our memories or our reality to fit in here. This is a safe place for everyone.

I was very fortunate to be stationed in Germany during the cold war while being stationed and assigned to the 557th USAAG in Herbornseelbach just 50K north of Giessen for a year and a half but was transferred to Muenster and the 570th for the remainder of my tour!

I thoroughly loved and enjoyed my time stationed there. At the time the Wall to East Germany was still up and traveling was still very restricted due to the nature of our assignment there.

So son you have friends here of all sizes shapes and forms. Please don't hesitate to add your thoughts and feelings to the forum. We are all of one accord here and totally care about anything you might want to share with us! You are our family !!!

Ouza

I am so toched i could cry, thanks...