ARCHIVE: Whats going on?

By Finalescape Sep 3 2009 -

Hello Everyone,

I know not anything of who I am, I merely am a human as far as I can see it but I sense that I'm something else something that scares me. I have the ability to control outcome and create new future bad or good as I choose for anyone who comes through my path. I can control Weather and caused a flood for 4-5 days biggest flood for 50 years where I lived. I've been attacked in oobe state by a woman and found friends that are also fallen that understand themselves alot better. I've been attacked by their pets and can see their true forms. I can see shadows through the night every now and then. Am I one of you or am I just crazy lol and its all in my head.

-Thanks-


By Scratch Sep 3 2009 -

QUOTE (Finalescape @ Sep 3 2009, 07:21 AM)
"Am I one of you or am I just crazy lol and its all in my head."

That's the question you and I and probably everyone here asks.

Even if I don't get answers, or realize I've made a mistake (and a lot of things I thought was mistaken about lined up in the long run), writing about it makes it not just in my head anymore. This is a great place to organize thoughts, ask questions, and ramble.

Having power like that is scary, but fear is what makes it uncontrollable. If you start it, you can stop it.

What's oobe state?


By Finalescape Sep 3 2009 -

I was wondering if eveveryone had asked that question lol. But also I can instill fear in animals through my emotion I made two barking dogs cry when i heard a voice in my head say you know who I am. Its like I have two voices my kind voice and then the evil but wise voice. And oobe is out of body experience I've been slammed to my bed while being half away listening to the tv and my eyes open and felt like I was bieng seperated from my body force ably. Also the second voice is the source of my power to commit if I speak with it it'll come true. I caused an accident when I told a friend she'd have a car accident, She nearly crashed into a motorcyclist 3-5 days later. Also I obsorbed the mental memories of a girl for a math test I ended getting my passing grade while she ended up crying because she went blank after working on it for weeks. I could keep going but I'd like to hear opinions too biggrin.gif lol.


By Seraphyna Sep 3 2009 -

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"I merely am a human as far as I can see it"


We're all technically human.

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"I have the ability to control outcome and create new future bad or good as I choose for anyone who comes through my path."


That's a hefty claim given the fact that everyone has free will...so how exactly do you know it's you creating whatever outcome and not just the person going along their path?

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"I can control Weather and caused a flood for 4-5 days biggest flood for 50 years where I lived."


This is yet another hefty claim. Have you considered that it's just coincidence and the flood would've happened either way?

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"But also I can instill fear in animals through my emotion I made two barking dogs cry when i heard a voice in my head say you know who I am."

Animals pick up on the energy of people around them. Barking dogs crying doesn't necessarily mean they are afrad...and even if they were it doesn't mean it had anything to do with you.

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"Its like I have two voices my kind voice and then the evil but wise voice."

Do you mean that you literally hear voices? Or do you mean proverbially like in cartoons where the person has an angel on one shoulder and a devil on the other?

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"And oobe is out of body experience I've been slammed to my bed while being half away listening to the tv and my eyes open and felt like I was bieng seperated from my body force ably."


Or you were experiencing sleep paralysis.

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"Also the second voice is the source of my power to commit if I speak with it it'll come true."


Lots of hefty claims, huh? I'd test this "power" of yours to differentiate between causation and coincidence.

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"I caused an accident when I told a friend she'd have a car accident, She nearly crashed into a motorcyclist 3-5 days later."


I wouldn't say you caused an accident...more like you foresaw that there might be one. There's a big difference.
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"Also I obsorbed the mental memories of a girl for a math test I ended getting my passing grade while she ended up crying because she went blank after working on it for weeks."


Or, she had a brain fart and you actually studied.

All in all you seem to jump to a lot of conclusions rather than look for alternative explanations. I'd seriously recommend analyzing things before jumping to a "supernatural" conclusion.


By Azaz'el Sep 3 2009 -

I agree that everything that happens to us need to be questioned and looked at thoroughly. However, as we're not there to witness these events, all we can do, for any of us, is accept that these things have happened and that those posting are trying to figure things out.

So, Finalescape, what are the conclusions you have come up? What makes you so sure that you are 'merely' Human?

For many people, the process of awakening can cause a shift in what couldbe keen kinetic energy........... or in other words, when we go through the process of phase shifting with eadh major memory event, the energy that generates can cause major events to happen around us. Or there is a perfectly normal explanation!!! tongue.gif

Animals can be very sentitive to the changes that take place in the energy flow and levels within all living beings. So as odd or as unusual as it can seem, its only natural that they can react when they face us. It can also happen with babies and small children too, as strange as that sounds.

So, welcome to the Forum, Finalescape. Perhaps you'd like to post something in the Introduction section, just to tell us a little of how you came to discover what you now know about what you can do, and how you were drawn to the Shadow.

Az


By Finalescape Sep 4 2009 -

Yea thats what I would have said to any of those occasions I've had a dream of a place I had never been to or seen and a week later traveling to dallas I came to it. Not entirely certain but it happens with my sister and surrounds my grandmother that joins me and my sister as we are half blood related. I test out the mental reading but its not controllable its more of an instance were you can hear someones thoughts because they're screaming it out. But I say that its just coincidence and that's all.


By Ouza Sep 4 2009 -

Oh please... don't deny yourself everything that you have been experiencing as being a bunch of hooey!!! Your just having a hard time trying to communicate or interpret just exactly how and what's going on in your life right now effectively. Your sentences revolve around yourself as being the center or source when in fact you are only a part of the source and the ego is saying a lot of me, me, me!!!

Each of us take a different path so to speak so what applies to me doesn't necessarily apply to you! We can't just Carte Blanche our answers but can only try to be an effective mirror for you and others to reflect in!

We're all a product of our times and definitely receive bleed over from everything else that coexists in and around our day to day lives vs. lifetimes! (Person, Personality, Persona)

Somehow with help and guidance we can all get through this all together! Just the fact of you being here does in fact mean that you are indeed a most definite part of what's going to happen to us all! I keep quoting "Nothing is ever wasted!" where Az will state that while "Nothing is ever forgotten!" Both are different aspects of the same whole for cause and effect but always with just a little touch of added perspective on the side for flavor. They both together validate our need to emerge from this blackness so that We and I mean That we have created for ourselves.

Just don't become a product of someone else's interpretations of what they think that your emotions and feelings should be. That 's why true discernment is a definite biggie right now... for us all! Sit back listen and center yourself and quit personalizing everything that you experience!<---I need to work on that one myself!

Don't be too concerned for the whys and wherefores [<-- easy to say but hard to do " ] right now you're, in the right place at the right place at the right time. And anyone who says that they're 100% accurate onor in their interpretations and analogies is full of hoey!!! We all are... still taking that first step at this moment and time and are still learning and evolving from moment to moment along this so called path given us!

Their are no claims to fame here just a desire to take the next step successfully in the so called scheme of things, together!

Hang in there and don't give up! We all make mistakes or misinterpret what is seen, felt and heard or even tasted but at least we will grow from that so called experience... as a whole together, as one!


Ouza

Love, Light and Life!
and of course... "Welcome Home"


By Dreamsend Sep 4 2009 -

I'll second what Ouza said =) Out of all of us here, you have the most information about what's happening to you, as you were there first hand.

I don't have any definite answers for you or about you; all I can say is what I've experienced, and hopefully that will be helpful to you.

It is definitely possible to be "merely human" and be able to have an influence on the world like that. Though I agree with some of what Seraphyna said, that for me at least, it's been difficult to ascertain what was me *causing* an event vs. having intuition *about* an event. But, for sure there is nothing "mere" about humanity, and many are capable of extraordinary things, the same as the kin and Fallen.

As far as saying something and having it come true, I have only in the past month or two had several scary situations where I casually suggested that something could happen (one was a disaster) and then it did happen shortly thereafter. I too had the feeling at the time that I had somehow *caused* this to happen.

I stop short of claiming it outright because like Seraphyna suggested, all beings have free will, and yes, you can do magick but I don't see why saying something w/o intent for it to occur should make it occur. So, while I've been very wary recently of what I suggest, and how I say it, I'm also trying to figure out for me what is true... did I say something out of premonition? Or did the suggestion contribute (maybe not cause but) to a cause/effect situation?

Weather magick is quite easy for many of us, and I don't doubt that you may affect it on occasion, though again I might stop short of thinking I had caused a major flood unless there were evidence before that this often happened to me...

Two other abilities you may be more interested in reading about are psychic empathy and telepathy. It sounds like you may have been tapping into that girl, especially if you didn't know beforehand what you knew during the test.


By Finalescape Sep 5 2009 -

Well im glad people have been responding to me haha. Because I always thought crazy one time I had something happen to me when i was sleeping and it was wierd because I would wake up in a paralysis and I would hear a girls laughter. And then I would feel scratchings on my back like you little ###### and felt like I was being attacked it happend like 5 times right after each time i woke up from the state of paralysis because i was really awake but mentally I was contacting the other side I thought. Or maybe I'm crazy enough for this to all happen so randomly or ghosties in my house but who knows lol.

--Also my sign of power is a triangle I don't know It just kinda came to me in a dream--


By Scratch Sep 5 2009 -

I've found about the worst thing I can do, when questioning anything weird that happens to me, is say, "maybe I'm just crazy." Maybe what I'm perceiving isn't the whole picture, or I'm fabricating explanations for myself, but just chalking it up to insanity is harmful. That can seem like a "safety" thought, but can cause nasty downward spirals, and I can keep an open mind without it.

Everyone's "crazy" in one way or another, and there are legitimately insane people who perceive things that aren't there, except in their heads. Being honest is the best policy. Practice letting go of what you want it to be, and look for which seems to be the most likely explanation. This isn't a contest, and we're all trying to sort out what's real and what isn't. There's certainly far more to life than a lot of people are willing to look at, and it can be many times stranger than fiction. But if you don't look at what's really happening, as honestly as you can, it starts becoming fiction.


By Finalescape Sep 6 2009 -

Well I guess ill just have to wait and see. When will this all come to understanding in our eyes does anyone know..?


By Scratch Sep 6 2009 -

I've been asking that question for at least 6 years, and doubt there's any one answer, other than "when it does." Anything and everything is always simply one thing at a time.

One night, a friend and I decided to go to a certain hot spring. It's up in the mountains, off an old logging skid, but there's no actual path most of the way. I severely underestimated how much snow they get up there, as well as how tired I was from work that day, and only realized this after we'd already driven an hour and a half to start walking. What had been a nice, if steep, nature hike last time, was slogging through feet of snow in boots that gave no traction, where one bad slip could send me crashing into rocks or over cliffs. Any time I thought of those springs, they seemed impossible to reach, and I would have rather sat in a snowbank until daylight than struggle any further. But the next step was right in front of me, completely doable, and by simply looking at the ground ahead and finding the perfect place for my right foot, then left, then right again, over and over, I was able to mostly forget how cold, and tired, and completely unprepared and unsuited I was. Finding the right place to step set me up for the next one, so I did not slip or slide, which took care of fear and wasting energy. It still felt like forever, and was worst when I realized we were nearly there, because I had to fight to urge to hurry. But I probably wouldn't have made it at all, and might have gotten seriously hurt, if I'd focused more on where I was going than each individual step.

That's one of the most valuable lessons I've learned in the past few years. And, incidentally, I can't even sum-up how wonderfully worth it soaking in that spring was.


By Azaz'el Sep 6 2009 -

QUOTE (Finalescape @ Sep 6 2009, 07:08 PM)
"Well I guess ill just have to wait and see. When will this all come to understanding in our eyes does anyone know..?"

As each new member joins, as each of the Fallen, Nephillim, Shadow, Kin and Human awaken and answer the call to come to this site and share, we get new pieces of the puzzle and are able to see and remember the bigger picture.

As you have probably guessed by now, the story is quite a complicated one, as its not just what happened at the point of us becoming the Fallen that we have to understand. That is vital, but we also need to understand all the wars that took place, all Falls, all events that had a serious affect on all Kin and forced them from the consciousness of Humanity. We also have to understand the process of ascention, the unity of the Races and the way to reopen the Gateway to the Source. Once we have done that, then I think we may have some understanding.

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Az


By Eshtar Sep 7 2009 -

Yes alot of times it is the journey itself and not the destination of where one goes. And what is learned from it.