Dragon therian? :o

Well, all this seems quite interesting and amazing at the same time. What i find somewhat comforting is that you all seem very sure of yourselves, confident in what you believe to be true, whether or not there are others that disagree with you. I admire that and it makes me more confident that I am not just losing my marbles.

With that said. I have a few things to explaine myself ^.=.^

I have never seriously entertained the thought that i was a therian of a sort. I suppose i am not a conventional therian, but it is prolly good that i do not conform with the norm, whatever the norm may be.(I tend to think the 'norm' is what is generally accepted by society, in other words, conforming to it.)
I generally thought myself to be an otherkin at first, before the mind of Kakrikoran awakened. I believe it was a peice of him that has integrated into a part of me, that gave me the feeling of being a dragonkin. I felt the name Kakoroff was of some importance and took it to be my true name, or draconic name.

It was in july of this year, 2011, that Kakrikoran's consciousness awoke. It startles me, having him awaken. At first it was confusing, and it frightened me slightly (one usually is unaccustomed to hearing voices in ones head, unless it has happened before.) To be honest, I believed I was beginning to go mad. (Yes, i thought i was going crazeh @.=.@ ) It took some time for Kakrikoran to convince me otherwise. It still took some time for me to completely believe that I was not going mad, though.
Apparently, when I was seven years of age, he had traveled from his realm to this one, and joined his soul with mine, fusing them permanently. He lay dormant inside me for 12 years (what i find somewhat oddly coincidental it that 12 is the # representing government [in the bible anyways]...I don't think that is of any relevance though.) Another coincidence is that there was some very peculiar events in the town i lived in when i was 7, that occurred over the summer of 2010. I shall save that for another post...

Anyways, Kakrikoran is a metallic gold dragon. He will not tell me whether he left his body willingly, or if he died. (It is most likely a touchy subject for him.) To the point of the therian subject. As i said earlier, I never entertained the thought of being a therian all to seriously. I now recognize it, due to the description of a therian I read that therian's tend to have abnormal strength for their size and can somewhat change their appearance by shifting. I do tend to have the abnormal strength for my size. But as for the shifting, I cannot do any type of that. Although, around the time Kakrikoran had awoken, my eyes changed from their normal dark brown to a lighter brown with a gold sheen to them. After some time the gold disappeared but my eyes remain a lighter brown than before. When I first noticed my eyes like that, I was about to so shave, and I turned on the light above my sink, and I was genuinely startled by the color of my eyes.

Well that's part of some of the things I wanted to say, but if i were to go on, I think it might become a pain to read.

feel free to ask questions. ^.=.^

Do you feel that he died on earth or someplace else. And have you ever asked him why now and what his awakening will do for both you and him? Do you feel destined for bigger and better things when you are older? And how do you describe him personally? As a being of peace or one who has come to recover himself!

Ouza

I just had it clarified today. He left the realm from which he is from. He did not die...He appearently lost his body in traveling from his realm to this realm.
I consider him a guardian of a sort. But, I never asked him what we could possibly accomplish. Before he arrived on earth, he was a mentor of a sort, a guide. He had also told my that he was, and still is a highly respected dragon. I have a few people I met that claim to have known Kakrikoran back when he was in his home realm.

As for my future. I have not the slightest clue to what my future holds. I am aiming for a specific goal. But If my path changes, then so be it. For now, Kakrikoran remains quite passive. I will not deny the Kakri and I, together, could become something greater than we would ever imagine. The question would be of my motivation to do so. I am not one easily motivated .... I tend to remind myself of Shikumaru from the anime Naruto o.=.o Incredibly smart, but awfly lazy. Kakri sometimes has to spur me into action in order to get something done.

As to what I think of Kakri, I enjoy his company. He is very kind to me and is rather helpful at times. He is mostly quite peaceful, soft spoken and quiet. Very contrast to what I am, heh. He has his days where he becomes very "homesick" and misses his home. But other than that. I think he's a very fine fellow. ^.=.^

This had happened the day I made the above post, and I believe this might make clear some of Kakrikorans past:

Saturday, Dec. 10, 2011
Kakrikoran was very depressed today. This is not frequent, he succumbs to his longing and homesickness every once in a while, allong with how much he misses his former mate he had in his home realm. His sadness is enough to affect me as well, although I try not to let it, and instead I try to comfort him in any way possible. Kakri is allowing me to record his last few days on his home realm, as this was the cause of his depression today.
This is in his words:

"It was 7 days before I was to depart from my realm. Around that time, I was busied by many of the essential tasks ans duties I had been assigned by the elders of my clan. On most occasions, a departure was regaurded with a high amount of honor and pride, but I was one of the few guardians, who were mated. My mate was also a guardian, and to leave her, caused a great sorrow within me. She was also to depart soon to another ream. Sadly, the name of it escapes my memory. I had only 3 days left with her. It pained me, and still pains me greatly, that we had to part, after a 120 year mateship. I still cling to the memories I still have of her. The last day I had with her, I shirked my duties as a guardian, to spend time with my mate, whom I will most likely never see again...

"We spent the day, talking about the time we had, and the things we accomplished. We recalled all the memories of our hatchlings that we raised, and the effort it took to concieve them--I am unsure why, but it took multiple attempts to actually concieve.(Not that i am comlaining, heh.) We figured that I must have been partially sterile , or that she had fertility issues. But, in the end, we managed to successfully raise a clutch of younglings. Sadly, she never could concieve again, after numerous attempts
Returning to the main point... My mate and I spent our last night, watching the sun set, our last sunset. We refused to spoil our evening with tears, so we held our composure. I would rather not disclose my memory of my evening activities on my last night with her. In a roundabout way, I made our last night memorable for both of us.

"She only slept an equivialant of three hours that night. I hadn't slept at all. I lay next to her awake, watching her gentle sleep for the last time.
When sunrise came, it was time for her to go. A small ceremony took place whenever a guardian was to depart. As soon as the ceremony was complete, she was ready to depart. Despite our desire to keep our composure, we wept. After out final embrace, I gave her an amulet, that I had always wore around my neck. I told her, "Keep this, So you may always remember me." I slid it over her head and said, "I shall never forget you"

"With that, she departed. The next night...I sunk into a temporary depressive stuper. I recovered by morning, with the help of Kitaran. He is a setient creature similar to a "gryphon" as those on earth would call it. Kitaran was a close friend, and he helped me out in my situation. I had to hold up my appearance to others of my clan. My clan had, and most likely still has a ranking system to allow for proper organization. I was a top ranking Drakoki. Those of equal rank were over thrice my age. The younglings and those of my clan admired me, and treated me with a high level of respect. I mentored many of the younglings that desired to be a guardian. And I did many other various duties I was respoonsible for. I had to hold up a respectable appearence.

"The day I was to depart, I bid farewell to kin, friends, mentors, and my elders. I took one last flight to have one more look at my home, before I departed. Then the time came, I went through with the ceremony, and left my home realm, knowing I may never return.

"I suppose I could call my feeling home sickness. I miss my former home. But, I must move on. Kakoroff does try to comfort me in any way possible, but mainly, it takes a day for me to get over my depressive moments. Mehlaphuse, the mate of Kakoroff, helps where she can, and I am thankfull for both of them. I do not regret choosing to indwell Kakoroff, for he has met and exceeded many of my expectations recently, hence the reason he has my name, Goldenheart. He truely has a kind and loving heart, and I find that comforting."
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Again, This was Kakrikorans words, and I am glad he was willing to share them. He excluded names of his mate and such, even to me, for his own reasons. This does reveal a bit of his backround too, in case anybody was wondering. Its a bit choppy, as his conciousness felt distant and faint, and I had to fill in a couple blanks with what emotions, impressions and such I was picking up from him.(He doesn't always communicate with words)

You did well, son!

I know that he is truly very proud of you and for you giving him the opportunity to further express his thoughts and feelings for him in the here and now!

Ouza

Thank you Ouza ^.=.^

well kakoroff i cant say i have had the same experience as i am the son of a dragon lord the dragon lord of fire to be exact. but thats not really the point here the point is thus. up to the time i got out of the military i was struggling with my anger never really knew the reason for it up till recently. any ways i always thought it was a demon hiding within me but in all actuallality it was Drakon that was within me every time i was having issues with something his anger would arrise and my human side reacted like a bomb shell blacking out often and attacking. I am still ashamed of those moments but i have redeemed my self me and drakon anyways came to an understanding in a little house on franklin street in olney illinois that we would fuse in a way and his anger subsided for that last time we still get angry today and go off but not as bad as we used to when he would take control over my body completely. we tend to stay calm and fluent like water these days. as we see no more point in getting angry over something that can be solved with words instead of fist claws and horns. the last time he took over wasnt pretty i must say nothing happened except for alot of roaring at the sky so to speak. I guess we resent being stuck in this human body he is also a bit femaleish at times well i am too lol but we are one now so its the evolution of our soul. well any ways it was over a vehicle i needed and he took controll we went off at our human mother and ran off on our bicycle ranting the whole way and roaring but that was before we came to our understanding and fused completely so i guess in a way we could be therian taking on the attributes of our dragon body in a phantom like state. but i must admit our human body is deteriorating for being in such a young body. my guess is that it cant handle all of our energy together and its causing issues for the body. its like we are being hammered by sledge hammers even now its aching but our strength pushes away most of the pain.

as for our memories they are very faint as lets see how to put this. blocks so speak have been put in place over time for checks and balances some of which dont allow for memory recall so we cant really remember our mother save for the fact that she was a silverish white dragon with green eyes and father which is lord Fafnir has blue eyes and red scales. my eyes still shift between blue and green. well we have one memory faint as it is of a realm in the astral planes that is of a mountain that was destroyed by another dragon that i have met in real and was once a friend of mine till he back stabbed me. but thats not the point. the point is thus the memory is really faint and we can barely remember it due to the reasons we have stated earlier.

well thats all for now ask questions if you must lol i dont mind really dont be scared of us we are very kind lol

Were you in Afghanistan or Iraq?

I too am x-military retired now!

I fought both in the Korean war and Vietnam war! How do you feel about the war
and it's overall effect on your perception of your Drakon and you?

Ouza

p.s. We fought one war too many!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I was in irag but in germany for most of the time in the army war quite simply its over rated its not worth the effort and the lives lost but sometimes its neccessary to protect those and the places you care for. as for its effect on me and drakon it really made us for the better he calmed down and realized what value peace had. but me and him are totally one now one mind one body, although we do split from time to time like when danger is imminent. though i have this strange occurence that always happens to my jaw. well to put it simply it locks and cracks every time something bad is about to happen i guess in a way its like spidermans spidey sense lol. but all actuality it comes from drakon's higher sense for danger and we will always know when danger or any form of bad luck is about to strike but not when or where. but i got a little off track there Drakon aka me as well was born from the fire god or dragon lord of fire and a very beutifull white dragon goddess which i know this because she has shown her self to me on a couple of occasions normally when i am highly relaxed and go off into a trance like state without forcing it. any ways drakon was bred for war i however am a defender protector not bred for war but help those who need help though there are similarities between the two but thats the best way i can describe it. like i said in the last post memories are hard for us me to remember and our mind is slow and clumsy at times. its due to all the tramatic events in our lives that these blocks have been put up so we are protected. protected from what exactly we still have yet to figure that out.

oh well thats all for now i really need to get back to my own comp and get it up and running lol