I have questions

Why do i see myself with 6 wings when I am really focuesed on what im doing and channeling power, and when Im not the 2 other pair act as a shield?

I sometimes feel crazy with all this crap i know and have no idea where im getting it from, can someone of a positive nature read me and tell me what they think and see?

I am trying to figure out how descenedants of angels get stuck in human bodies and why can't they just leave?

Seraphim have six wings. They rarely unfold all six because they tend to burn things to ash and beyond when they do.

I don't think anyone else can tell you what you are hun. It's a very personal thing. We can try to point you in the right direction, but in the end the understanding has to come from within. Trust your own instincts.

I have absolutely no idea why the fallen are in human form. One of them should answer that.

thank you for the help

The general understanding as to why the Fallen are now incarnate in Human form has to do with the fact that apparently Humanity is the unifying Race and form for all Kin to reach ascension. As for the wings, each choir or level of Shadow have a different form and number of wings. Most people automatically think we just have 2 but that is only the case for some ranks/choirs.

Az

In my research, I have discovered many things about The Shadow, The Fallen, The Nephilim, The Grigori which are a subsidiary of The Shadow.... So far as my readings have concluded, the 200 Grigori were cast out of heaven because they chose their love of humanity, of humans specifically, over their devotion and love for the Source, or God. Two angels were conscripted to cast the Grigori out of their angelic bodies and "into the earth", As it is commonly translated. I have come to the conclusion that when the 200 were cast out of their bodies and 'into the earth' that the translation means that they, we, were cast not 'into the earth' but ONTO the earth, to live mortal lives over and over. It is our curse to live mortal lives over and over until judgement because of our choice. That is one belief that I have as to why we are here, trapped in flesh.
As to the wings, the above two are correct, the Seraphim have 6 wings, and rarely unfurl the lower two pairs because of the high levels of energy released when they do so. Energies that this plane of existence can barely harness. As such, they are typically used as protection. It is a common theory that angels don't or didn't have wings at all, that there is an aura of power around their spiritual forms that was called "wings" by the less informed.

That is an amazing theory and thank you for the help and i kinda agree that the wings thing, but it makes me feel good to know that the wings are not my imagination.

Thanks for sharing your theory about the Fall the Grigori faced, and whilst I can't say that will not be true for some, I can say that for me and a few other Grigori I know it's not true. I and others were not cast down on to the earth to live mortal lives repeatedly, I for one have only had one mortal life before this one. But, as I say, I can't account for all of the 200 Grigori and 1 angel that faced the Fall. It may well be that the Fall was a different act for each individual even though initially all 199 souls seemed to be imprisoned in the same "place."

Az

I'm referencing this thread, because the poem had spoken to me about there having to be a final fall for the entire thing to be complete: https://fallenshadow.darkbb.com/t852-a-rhyming-message

Now, as I've been discussing with a few people here and on another board (Otherkin Community), there is this boy that keeps showing up in the dreams of angel kin and other energy celestials. I've seen it said on this board in the past, that Lucifer is still MIA. Is he the boy? I'm wondering if the two incidents are connected. i.e. the boy is him, and he's stuck somewhere still...

Lucifer is a God, your looking for an angel your not going to find him. He speaks to me when i need help and he is a roman god.

Zariel wrote:

Lucifer is a God, your looking for an angel your not going to find him. He speaks to me when i need help and he is a roman god.

Actually, I think more along those lines. I'm not looking for him at all, think I might have run across him, but I didn't want to take it at face value and I am still wondering about this child-like being that is creeping up into the dreams. If not him, would make more sense to me, but that does leave the puzzle of who it is.

I've been thinking along the lines of Lilith and Lucifer. But that's a different story.

Malphas, I too have the believe that we are living our lives over and over again as punishment.
As Angels immortal, and on earth, our immortal souls bound to live again and again without the
release from this plane that others are blessed with. I believe that these souls were often born
into Nephilim - a bit of a cosmic joke if you will. I know that I was once and am still Nephilim,
and am decended from a race of Sidhe (which I believe to be a group of displaced and very misunderstood
group of Nephilim decended from the tribe of Dan that sought out refuge in Eire thousands of years ago. I have at least managed to trace my bloodline that far and it makes sense to me).

I, for the record, recall two wings but in some lives I have had four.

is anyone good at psychic readings?

So far as 'psychic readings' are concerned, I am versed both in scrying, as well as tarot reading, should you have any questions you'd like answered, deliver them to me either here, or under the name Knox Discordia on facebook. my email is maliusnephilim@yahoo.com as well.
It is good to finally hear from someone that shares my theories about the reincarnation of our souls Terra'el. I would like to discuss this subject further with you if you do not mind. You may contact me by any of the above mentioned methods as well if you'd like.

I don't know how I've missed this thread. Thank you Malpas for bringing it to my attention.

Terra'el your understanding is almost exactly the same as mine. I know for sure that I was cursed to live lifetime after lifetime repeating the same horrific actions over and over and over. This life I seem to have broken the curse which is why I think it's such an important one.

And I also think that the Nephylim have been showing up through history as some of the great heroes. I have to admit that I haven't associated the Tuatha De Danan, as being of the tribe of Dan but it makes perfect sense now.

I, too skry and read tarot. Tarot is a passion of mine I collect cards.

Sorry I've missed your response for so long - family matters have distracted me I am afraid.
But yes, the link between nephilim/otherkin seems logical to me. I have been quite a student of
my own geneology and the link between the lost tribe of Dan and the Tuatha is clear.
Imagine a race of superhuman Nephilim decending upon the acient celts... what else could they have called
them but Gods? Fairies... spirits... all names to represent the lost children of the Angels.
I feel that all Nephilim have some type of "power" (I do hate that word but use it for lack of another...), even us modern Nephilim. I myself am what you would call a medium - the dead seek me out and I
do what I can to help them. My sister has some limited telekinisis. (even today she was telling me about getting angry at work and a pen flying across the room. No control at all over it I am afraid.)

I think people forget that the Angels are simply another race entirely and our blood doesn't mingle well
with human blood. I still feel that the connection between RH negative blood and our angelic ancestry is clear, the blood is dominant.

Sorry about your punishment... I am coming to terms with the idea that I have lived many lives, tiresome as it may seem.

sorry for not responding so much the army takes most of my time away from my family and spiritual, (please no thank you for your service were just as much slaves as everyone else is in the world) but I appreciate your support and what you have told me is very helpful thankyou