Meditation of Source

I had an interesting meditation Sunday night a few weeks ago. (September 18)
It started as me in one of my forms. This form basically looks like condensed white light, which is sometimes in the form of a woman. She has flowing hair and robes that look like they're being moved by a light breeze. She doesn't really have a name so sometimes I call her Elysium, and other times I simply refer to her as 'Light'. So in this meditation I/Light was sending out links. They looked like tendrils of light coming out of me and reaching out to... I'm not really sure what or who. The energy was very intense and she didn't look how she normally does. She/I had much more energy, which made her look almost darker, or actually see-through might be a better way to describe it.

Then I decided to connect to and fully merge with the Source. I'm not sure how the transition happened, but I became the Source. There was no you and I, there was no us and them. It was all One. I am That, and that's all there is to it. I expanded far beyond this Universe. So far that even this vast universe seemed small. There is a Multiverse composed of an uncountable number of universes. That is My body, each universe like one cell.
I/Source looked like darkness with many points of white light, like the night sky. I have no defined shape, but sometimes it looked vaguely human but with many arms. (I think this was to help my human brain comprehend things) Where Its third eye would be there is a rounded diamond shape, like an eye but the points go up and down, not horizontal. This third eye is pure, shining blue.
I am both male and female yet neither. I am ageless. I am everywhere and everything. I expand beyond the farthest reaches of the Multiverse. I am in the smallest particles of an atom and I am in the empty spaces in between. I am constantly aware of everything.

I tried entering the blue third eye but wasn't able to get very far. I did, however, get a sense that it was full of all the most divine and holy places. And it was full of divine knowledge.

Near the end of the meditation I was back in my own body but still had Source consciousness. I felt that this world is my body, and since it's my body I should be able to move and control things with my mind, like telekinesis, just as you can move your hand with your mind. However, whenever I tried to do something, small Katie consciousness would come back and be afraid and doubtful. So it didn't work, and Source me knew I wouldn't be ready or able to do things until I could get over this doubt.

heh, not to sound snooty, but wlecome to the club, though my own experience was very different. i believe in another post i recounted it in the past, it was a vision that i thought was a memory of me dying once before, where i was sort of floating in this massive swarm of stars (that's a close approximation, except these were about the size of large birds), where i felt every emotion of every living thing, it was very difficult to process, and extremely euphoric!

Cool experience, Raz! You being able to feel every emotion of every living thing is kind of like how I felt I was everywhere and everything. Your experience was more emotional, while mine was more physical.
I've had a few other experiences where I see myself expanding out into the galaxy or beyond that into the Universe. But this experience I posted was the most intense and powerful, and I really experienced it more than just seeing it. It's hard to really put words to it in order to do it any justice....but I'm sure you know what I mean.

yeah, no worries, i didn't quite get the physical part, it's true, but ever since then i've had the occasional bout of... i dunno, understanding i guess, where all of a sudden i'll just completely get what makes someone tick, and somehow know to say exactly what they need to hear. it's very surreal, and other times i'll sort of see an overlay of the connections between people, like i'm picking up these faint, glowing lines of light stretching between everything. very odd...

but have been meaning to ask you, did you have silver hair back in the day?

That's awesome! And I think I know what you mean. It's like there's this invisible layer on which everything is connected. My intuition has been incredibly strong and accurate lately and sometimes I will know exactly what I need to say or do and when to do it. I used to doubt and hold back from this sort of thing, but now I've decided to trust and follow it and things are working out in amazing ways.

Did I have silver hair? Kinda I guess. Ari'el has white blond hair, but the other form that I call 'light' has white hair that shines. Why do you ask?

because i have a few memories of directing a choir of sorts, and i hesitate to say "my" best singer had this silvery white or white blonde hair as well, long and flowing. i just remember a certain feeling of pride when i think of it, sort of like a teacher with a star pupil.

My hair was long and flowing as well. What sort of 'choir', like an actual singing one?
The other day I felt like curling up with a book by a fire with some hot chocolate. And I saw myself as Ari in a big library by a nice fireplace and big windows. I think it was your library. Not sure if it was an actual memory or more like picturing myself in a place that I remember. I think it's the second one.

This must be the first time that you have this? If you could perceive the universe from above itself you would see that it and all that is resembles webs of light. The idea of everything being in fact separate is erroneous we are in fact connected to one another. The ego is separated only in perspective by the pineal glad which is the third eye so to speak that ones often talk about!

There lies the rub ~The Web of Life!~

No, it is not the first time I've seen or felt this . I believe there is a picture of the Universe as you describe, a web of light. To me it also looks like neurons and synapses. http://www.atlasoftheuniverse.com/universe.html
Right, exactly, we are all one and interconnected.

It was said that whoever designed the Human Brain made it in the essence of the universe itself! As above so below!

*grins* I can see that, Ouza.

Raz, now that I'm thinking about it a bit, I think my hair was sometimes silvery/bluish white. And it could range all the way to more of a gold white. I guess it all just depended on my mood.

sorry about the delay, yes, i meant an actual singing one, i love music to pieces, and i imagine i was quite proud of the choir i put together!

as for your hair, it seems our forms were rather morphic, but i suppose we chose commonly accepted and constant forms to remain relatable! X3

I'm sure you were! I love to sing... well, in my car, when I'm alone... I was in some choruses in school, but I'm not really that good. :-/

Yeah that makes sense about the forms, and I think you're probably right

Check this site out http://www.redicecreations.com/specialreports/2006/01jan/solfeggio.html

Ouza

I have always associated with the 'web of light' image of the universe. As a storyteller I have been very aware of the 'weaving of the web' in words, actions, dreams and ritual. At the end of the day we are all weaving our webs with every breath we take and every move we make

this article is very interesting, Ouza! i always knew music had a spiritual connection, but i never guessed the proverbial rabbit hole ran this deep! do you think that perhaps the choirs we had back in the day were for a sort of re-attunement ritual of a sort?

then maybe... maybe it wasn't the fact that humans joined the source that severed our already tenuous connection, but the fact that WE were the ones whose harmonic key changed to create a sort of dissonance with the source, as opposed to a harmony?

that may have come out as hard to understand, but what i mean to say is, the source never changed at all, rather, the present nature of most shadow as a whole is what's preventing them from connecting?

You have definitely hit the head of the nail with the hammer! Remember Tonals? Each is a gateway to the next sound and color range!

lol

The Source never changed, but our link to it did. It changed because the energy, vibration, tone, or whatever you want to call it, of a combined Human/Shadow energy changed the Link to the state or level that we needed to be at for our Evolution and the final unification of all Races. However, because of the Civil War and the Fall, those who understood this link and the way to bring about its transformation for us all, were killed before they could fully understand it.

The Mabon, the Divine Child, the offspring between the union of Shadow and Humanity would guide us all to unification and ascension. Our deaths, as harsh as this may sound, ended up being a back up plan........ we are ALL now Human AND Kin, and so we now begin to learn the lesson, without a teacher, of how to restart the Link and continue our evolution.

Az

Az - That's exactly what I had thought and mentioned a while back - Plan 'A' backfired so Plan 'B' was put into effect.....the Source intended for this to be...one way or another this had to happen.

Everything has happened for a reason - I know that sounds asinine coming from me

Everything pledged on that mountain would have been alleviated only if we all would have just walked away but we didn't. We all knew the results of our actions on the human species that would be forever lasting. And as AZ stated we also knew that even through our deaths and losses that eventually through the reincarnation cycle of this solar system we would eventually after 10,000 years or so come to this point of decision again!

We have all learned the humility brought on by the loss of loved ones and the war. And rather than being in a so called cushy position where we were before we thus chose to become the ones that we loved and admired so much from afar

Was it worth it? Yes a thousand times over....yes!

Ouza

The freedom of choice was put to stone, once I created both Adam and Eve!

Gabe you can say the Source intended it to be like this... doesn't mean 'it' didn't feel full of guilt, remorse and pain in doing so.

Also...Az can you explain this 'Divine Child'? How was it going to help with all unification?
Also...how do you plan to restart these links? What if the 'Source' doesn't want the links any more?

*Pester pester*

The Divine Child was the child that was to be born to Sem and Ish........ and that child would have been one of balance and equality, light and dark, Shadow and Human, with the knowledge of both Races and all worlds, and the ability to understand both and so unite both.

That child would have grown and guided and taught us all how to reconnect with the Source and become one..... our evolution.

As for the Source not wanting the Link any more......... that's just not possible. We are all part of the Source, it is where we come from, it is our Mother and Father, and we are here because of it. The Source has a link to everything......... the main issue right now is that we, Shadow, don't have a conscious Link to it. It will come again, it is meant to happen, and then our evolution will grow even faster.

Az

It's a little early to be going into this any further right now

Forgive me but I just get this feeling that getting these links aren't as simple as the Source will let you. I do think it is possible for the Source not wanting them any more; it's a feeling I get but please don't see me as belittling what you say/believe etc, it's just a feeling that I get.

Ish, a little early?