I think I got some memories

This kind of thing seems to happen when I close my eyes in bed, I think these COULD be memories.

So the first one I had was of me walking in Heaven. I seemed sad and heartbroken over something, though I'm not yet sure what it was about. Basically, I was walking within a crowd of Angels, some gave me glares while some just gave me dirty looks, as if I wasn't welcome there. Then, I started to feel dizzy and eventually fainted.

The recent one I had was of me walking again, only a lot faster than before. I bumped into an angel, as soon as I did, he/she (Not really sure, the face was a blur) told me to "Watch it!". As I was walking away, a voice was repeatedly shouting "Lucifer!", I remembered it as if it were my own. At that time, I remember falling on my hands and knees and just crying my heart out. There was also a tree beside me, so I was just sat there sobbing. I remember I felt sad, heartbroken and lost. I touched the tip of the blade that was attached to my hip, only to make my fingertip bleed. I took the blade and held it to my wrist, but couldn't do much more. I stand up and walk a few steps, only for someone to grab my arms and hug me like i was the most precious thing to them. The name 'Jeremiel' was said that also rung a bell to me. After this angel pulled away from the hug, I just grabbed the blade and pushed the tip into his chest.

In appearance wise, I looked the same as I do now, but with shoulder length blonde hair instead of brownish red.

Becca wrote:

This kind of thing seems to happen when I close my eyes in bed, I think these COULD be memories.

So the first one I had was of me walking in Heaven. I seemed sad and heartbroken over something, though I'm not yet sure what it was about. Basically, I was walking within a crowd of Angels, some gave me glares while some just gave me dirty looks, as if I wasn't welcome there. Then, I started to feel dizzy and eventually fainted.

The recent one I had was of me walking again, only a lot faster than before. I bumped into an angel, as soon as I did, he/she (Not really sure, the face was a blur) told me to "Watch it!". As I was walking away, a voice was repeatedly shouting "Lucifer!", I remembered it as if it were my own. At that time, I remember falling on my hands and knees and just crying my heart out. There was also a tree beside me, so I was just sat there sobbing. I remember I felt sad, heartbroken and lost. I touched the tip of the blade that was attached to my hip, only to make my fingertip bleed. I took the blade and held it to my wrist, but couldn't do much more. I stand up and walk a few steps, only for someone to grab my arms and hug me like i was the most precious thing to them. The name 'Jeremiel' was said that also rung a bell to me. After this angel pulled away from the hug, I just grabbed the blade and pushed the tip into his chest.

In appearance wise, I looked the same as I do now, but with shoulder length blonde hair instead of brownish red.

Hmm... what do you think this could mean? The thought of shouting "Lucifer" seems very familiar to me, but then again, that should be a given. Also, why do you think you killed that guy?

I dont know, maybe i thought that he had 'betrayed' me

Becca wrote:

I dont know, maybe i thought that he had 'betrayed' me

What kind of feelings did you experience as the act was being committed?

At first i felt pleased that i did it, but then I soon started to feel sad again

Becca wrote:

At first i felt pleased that i did it, but then I soon started to feel sad again

Perhaps it was a bittersweet event. Maybe it was just the heat of the moment, which felt good, but later plagued you with grief.

Maybe it was . I know that i didnt mean to do it but just did

Do you feel that you were a warrior?  Or could you have had another purpose that has long been forgotten?  It sounds that you were involved in one of the many scirmishes we had up and to the final facedown!

Ousa  

Ousa wrote:

Do you feel that you were a warrior?  Or could you have had another purpose that has long been forgotten?  It sounds that you were involved in one of the many scirmishes we had up and to the final facedown!

Ousa  

A feel a warrior- like link inside me . And what do you mean by scrimishes? Could you explain further ?

It should be spelled Skirmishes!

1. A minor battle in war, as one between small forces or between large forces avoiding direct conflict.

2. A minor or preliminary conflict or dispute: a skirmish over the rules before the debate began.
intr.v. skir·mished, skir·mish·ing, skir·mish·es

To engage in a minor battle or dispute.

Ousa  

Ousa wrote:

It should be spelled Skirmishes!

1. A minor battle in war, as one between small forces or between large forces avoiding direct conflict.

2. A minor or preliminary conflict or dispute: a skirmish over the rules before the debate began.
intr.v. skir·mished, skir·mish·ing, skir·mish·es

To engage in a minor battle or dispute.

Ousa  

Okay, so in other words, i was in a fight ? Excuse me if i am mistaken

I would say so!

Ousa  

Well that would explain why not many people seemed to like me there lol